Brrr....It's cold in here...

I am sitting here in my very adorable cherry robe...freezing my butt off. My nose is like frozen ice.
So I will probably make my next video either on Thursday or Friday..I haven't decided yet. I am excited to get back in the routine of it...I am really looking forward to it. =)

I have the next couple of days off....which equals good times!
I am starting to meet new people and it is definitely helping with the sadness. It helps to have people to talk to regularly and have people to do things with. I feel more at ease....and my mind is racing a million miles a second with tons of rushing thoughts about Shawn (the ex).

Anyways...I still haven't had luck with going to the grocery store yet. I have been eating quesadillas with avocado in them... turkey sandwiches...tamales..beans and rice of course lol yummy veggie burritos and cereal. So it hasn't been too bad....I have been staying up so late lately that I wake up super late and I dont end up eating that much for the rest of the day.

Ok, Im going to go warm up with some more layers..brrr. lol =)

xoxo
Amanda

Oops....

Ok so I consider this post as Friday's post...because I forgot about what time it was =-O

So, I am really happy I got a nice response back about my video. I was a lil scared that people were going to be telling me I suck, cuz I gained weight lol Thankfully that didn't happen. I knew it wouldn't because everyone is so supportive and everyone has slip ups..I was just nervous =)

Cuz I definitely felt bad...like i let people down..by letting my emotions get to me and gain weight. I felt embarassed =-/ I for sure don't want to have that feeling again. I want to be in that group of you tubers who are an inspiration for people. i want to people to look at me and say "hey if she can do it so can I". I hope that doesn't come off as conceited...cuz that's not what I'm getting at =)

Anyways...Im just glad that I sucked it up and made a vid, and layed it all out there on the table. =)

Ok so it's been a long day...so I am going to go relax.
As soon as I convince my mom to take me grocery shopping and what not...I will start posting pics of food again...cuz that was fun =) and ofcourse I will put up my food journal =)

Nite!
♥♥Amanda♥♥

Waiting....

So I am siting here waiting very patiently for my You Tube Video to load....Its taking FOOORRRREEEVVVERRR! lol Im like hurry up and load already!

Ok, I got that out of my system hehe It's currently at 56%..

So yeah my favorite phrase to describe myself is "I'm Lame" but it's true. I have just been so flakey with the videos and the blog...but not anymore!!! I know that I am not at risk of crying when I make the video so I can breathe a sigh of relief to know that I wont look like a total baby =-/

So, I hope to start eating better..cuz I wont lie I have not been eating great at all.
At my job there is only three of us and they are definitely not watching what they eat and I just totally got sucked in...and I work at the outlets and there is a Mickey Dees across the street and it has been hard to resist the 4 for a $1 chicken nuggets lol Sooooo good but Soooo Bad.

Like u guys would seriously be shocked to see all of the bad things that have crossed these lips =-/ Its really disappointing but oh well the past is the past..and I don't want to dwell on things I can't go back on =)

Ahhh its 72% now.... Im glad that I live in a town that has a Trader Joes five minutes away ..yay! I love TJ, they have such great stuff in there. I really need to get myself a license cuz its just hard going grocery shopping with my mom...she always rushes me and she makes a shocked face by the prices of meat and stuff =-O ...its annoying sometimes, But she's my mom I love her

79%...Yup and I was totally displeased with my video..OMG my face looks bloated =-/ ICK! I gotta work on that...I need to start guzzling down the H2O again.

Ok so this post has been sufficiently all over the place haha So I ma going to call it a night and wait for teh darn video to finish....82% So I will be back tomorrow and I will have another video up next week and hopefully I dont sound like too much of a dork in =-/ haha

XoXo
Amanda

86%.....lol

I have been lame.... I know!!!

Ok I'm not dead I promise!!!
I have just been in a real dark place lately and its been too hard for me to log on to You Tube and make a video. I will make an update video soon but it will probably be a text one.

I hope everyone is doing awesome and I hope your weight loss journeys are going great!!!

xoxo
Amanda

I've been buuuuussssyyy =)

Ok, so I have definitely been completely lame this past week with my blog....I have just been really busy with helping my dad move, starting my new job, and actually going out =-/

Anyways, I just got home from my job...I closed tonight...I can't even tell you how bored I was tonight, I almost fell asleep at the register lol But, I will talk about all of this stuff in my new video tomorrow =)

Time for some rest!

xoxo
Amanda

:-D

Hey Everyone!

So I made my new video on Sunday...and it felt so nice to be back in the saddle =)
It really is calming to just sit for ten minutes and talk.
So today was a good day...I didn't cry which is good hah.
I spent the day with my Dad...we went and had lunch. It seems that whenever I hang out with him he always wants to eat lol So I am constantly trying to find something that is semi- healthy on the menu. We never go to like a McDonald's or anything its always a sit down restaurant..but sometimes I just have to get whats available. But since I don't eat that much to begin with, I don't feel too guilty if I get a bacon cheeseburger from a restaurant lol I usually only eat half of whatever I get and I usually eat the rest the next day.
My Mom's fridge always seems to have a take out box in there now, from my dining adventures with my Dad. Today was Mexican food. I had a two enchilada platter with some beans and rice and water...but of course I started to get sick when I barely finished one enchilada. Sometimes that can be annoying. But at least I'm not over eating =) So I took the rest home...and ate the rest later on in the night.

So I just wanted to clarify to all that even though I say I am not eating much, that doesn't mean that I am like starving all the time and I just refuse to eat. I just seriously don't have much of an appetite so after I eat I'm full the rest of the day and that's it. I don't want anyone thinking that I am purposely not eating and making myself hungry because I am definitely not. I have never been the type who likes to be hungry lol

Ok, so it's time to go dream a happy a dream =)
Nite Everyone!
xoxo
Amanda