Brrr....It's cold in here...

I am sitting here in my very adorable cherry robe...freezing my butt off. My nose is like frozen ice.
So I will probably make my next video either on Thursday or Friday..I haven't decided yet. I am excited to get back in the routine of it...I am really looking forward to it. =)

I have the next couple of days off....which equals good times!
I am starting to meet new people and it is definitely helping with the sadness. It helps to have people to talk to regularly and have people to do things with. I feel more at ease....and my mind is racing a million miles a second with tons of rushing thoughts about Shawn (the ex).

Anyways...I still haven't had luck with going to the grocery store yet. I have been eating quesadillas with avocado in them... turkey sandwiches...tamales..beans and rice of course lol yummy veggie burritos and cereal. So it hasn't been too bad....I have been staying up so late lately that I wake up super late and I dont end up eating that much for the rest of the day.

Ok, Im going to go warm up with some more layers..brrr. lol =)

xoxo
Amanda

Oops....

Ok so I consider this post as Friday's post...because I forgot about what time it was =-O

So, I am really happy I got a nice response back about my video. I was a lil scared that people were going to be telling me I suck, cuz I gained weight lol Thankfully that didn't happen. I knew it wouldn't because everyone is so supportive and everyone has slip ups..I was just nervous =)

Cuz I definitely felt bad...like i let people down..by letting my emotions get to me and gain weight. I felt embarassed =-/ I for sure don't want to have that feeling again. I want to be in that group of you tubers who are an inspiration for people. i want to people to look at me and say "hey if she can do it so can I". I hope that doesn't come off as conceited...cuz that's not what I'm getting at =)

Anyways...Im just glad that I sucked it up and made a vid, and layed it all out there on the table. =)

Ok so it's been a long day...so I am going to go relax.
As soon as I convince my mom to take me grocery shopping and what not...I will start posting pics of food again...cuz that was fun =) and ofcourse I will put up my food journal =)

Nite!
♥♥Amanda♥♥

Waiting....

So I am siting here waiting very patiently for my You Tube Video to load....Its taking FOOORRRREEEVVVERRR! lol Im like hurry up and load already!

Ok, I got that out of my system hehe It's currently at 56%..

So yeah my favorite phrase to describe myself is "I'm Lame" but it's true. I have just been so flakey with the videos and the blog...but not anymore!!! I know that I am not at risk of crying when I make the video so I can breathe a sigh of relief to know that I wont look like a total baby =-/

So, I hope to start eating better..cuz I wont lie I have not been eating great at all.
At my job there is only three of us and they are definitely not watching what they eat and I just totally got sucked in...and I work at the outlets and there is a Mickey Dees across the street and it has been hard to resist the 4 for a $1 chicken nuggets lol Sooooo good but Soooo Bad.

Like u guys would seriously be shocked to see all of the bad things that have crossed these lips =-/ Its really disappointing but oh well the past is the past..and I don't want to dwell on things I can't go back on =)

Ahhh its 72% now.... Im glad that I live in a town that has a Trader Joes five minutes away ..yay! I love TJ, they have such great stuff in there. I really need to get myself a license cuz its just hard going grocery shopping with my mom...she always rushes me and she makes a shocked face by the prices of meat and stuff =-O ...its annoying sometimes, But she's my mom I love her

79%...Yup and I was totally displeased with my video..OMG my face looks bloated =-/ ICK! I gotta work on that...I need to start guzzling down the H2O again.

Ok so this post has been sufficiently all over the place haha So I ma going to call it a night and wait for teh darn video to finish....82% So I will be back tomorrow and I will have another video up next week and hopefully I dont sound like too much of a dork in =-/ haha

XoXo
Amanda

86%.....lol