I've been buuuuussssyyy =)

Ok, so I have definitely been completely lame this past week with my blog....I have just been really busy with helping my dad move, starting my new job, and actually going out =-/

Anyways, I just got home from my job...I closed tonight...I can't even tell you how bored I was tonight, I almost fell asleep at the register lol But, I will talk about all of this stuff in my new video tomorrow =)

Time for some rest!

xoxo
Amanda

:-D

Hey Everyone!

So I made my new video on Sunday...and it felt so nice to be back in the saddle =)
It really is calming to just sit for ten minutes and talk.
So today was a good day...I didn't cry which is good hah.
I spent the day with my Dad...we went and had lunch. It seems that whenever I hang out with him he always wants to eat lol So I am constantly trying to find something that is semi- healthy on the menu. We never go to like a McDonald's or anything its always a sit down restaurant..but sometimes I just have to get whats available. But since I don't eat that much to begin with, I don't feel too guilty if I get a bacon cheeseburger from a restaurant lol I usually only eat half of whatever I get and I usually eat the rest the next day.
My Mom's fridge always seems to have a take out box in there now, from my dining adventures with my Dad. Today was Mexican food. I had a two enchilada platter with some beans and rice and water...but of course I started to get sick when I barely finished one enchilada. Sometimes that can be annoying. But at least I'm not over eating =) So I took the rest home...and ate the rest later on in the night.

So I just wanted to clarify to all that even though I say I am not eating much, that doesn't mean that I am like starving all the time and I just refuse to eat. I just seriously don't have much of an appetite so after I eat I'm full the rest of the day and that's it. I don't want anyone thinking that I am purposely not eating and making myself hungry because I am definitely not. I have never been the type who likes to be hungry lol

Ok, so it's time to go dream a happy a dream =)
Nite Everyone!
xoxo
Amanda

Emotionally drained...

Man yesterday was so draining...more draining than any day I have had in weeks.
Shawn drove down here to talk to and see me.
The week before I left..we pretty much didn't speak to each other.
We only spoke a little bit about our feelings for a fraction of a second on the night before I left.
I feel that talking about important topics on the phone or through E-mail, just doesn't leave the same feeling as talking to one another face to face and being able to hash everything out.

Things are just so complicated between us, it's just all really hard to handle.
None of this has to do with weight...but I just felt like sharing. It's nice to get my thoughts out of my head. =)
I thought i would add a pic of us that we took yesterday...because in all of the five years of being together we never once had a pic taken together lol That's really weird. So I asked him if he would take one with me so we can have =)

Anyways...I didn't eat much yesterday. I was so nervous to see him it was like I was meeting him for the first time. I haven't felt that weird around him since the very first day we met at a park over five years ago. So I ate a slice of pizza and a small bowl of cereal. Definitely not great. But it will get better...Shawn and I
10-3-08

Hi =)

So I wont probably be blogging about everything I eat until I start again with everything on Monday. Now I haven't gone off of my plan by eating a huge amount of junk food or anything like that....I just haven't had much of an appetite lately and I'm ashamed to say that I barely eat. And its kind of important when you have a weight loss blog and a daily journal to actually have food to record lol

But I hope to get my act together starting next week. And I will just have to force myself to eat more =) I don't want to sabotage myself by not eating. And I need to not let me being sad affect my health and appetite =)

I'm still really excited to be back!
Can't wait to get into the swing of things =)

xoxo
Amanda