Making mom proud....

So my mom called me today and we talked about normal everyday stuff, and then we got to the subject of how I was doing with my new lifestyle change. I told her how organized I am being and how prepared and well thought everything is this time around and I could just hear the pure joy in her voice. I have put my mom through a lot of turmoil in the past. After I was raped I was always running away and acting out and drinking, barely eating, and cutting myself. I was just not taking care of myself and we had a lot of rough patches. By the time I moved out when I was 18, I seemed to have calmed down a lot...So when I started to gain a ton of weight I definitely started to put the stress on my mom, because i was obviously just trading one vice for another. I just didn't know how to deal and control my problems, so over eating and cutting was the next best thing. Fast forward 4 years later she has witnessed how uncomfortable I am with all this weight and how it has effected my health. She is always trying to get me to go to the doctor, but my stubbornness and anxiety gets in the way of me actually going. Which worries her even more. But today she told me how proud she was of me of taking this seriously and making the weight loss work this time. She really believes in me and can feel that this time is different and that I am ready to lose the weight and all of the emotional baggage that comes with it. Knowing that I am making her happy makes me feel even more motivated to lose the weight. I know i would feel terrible if I didn't succeed this time. Not only would I be letting myself down, I would letting her down. But I don't see myself failing. I know I am going to make it! =)

Food journal for today:
Breakfast- 1/2 cup of grapenuts 1/2 cup of honey bunches of oats 1 cup of milk and three fresh strawberries cut into it and an English muffin= 540 calories
Lunch- 2 cups of salad, some tomato and onion, 12 croutons, and 2 tbls of Italian dressing = 175 cal
Snack- 6 Triscuits and one String Cheese = 200 calories
Dinner- 1 1/2 cup of whole wheat pasta with organic tomato sauce, one small spinach and feta chicken sausage link, 2 Tbls of Parmesan = 650
Well, I almost went over my calories for the day the grand total is 1565
I really hope I am calculating everything correctly hehe =)